| What do you remember about me? x) |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|12:02 am] |
Koped from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) midjuly:
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your online journal (if you've got one) and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. |
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| Quiz! |
[Feb. 23rd, 2007|05:34 pm] |
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Finally, another public entry! :D koped this from wanyan's blog. ( Quiz ) |
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| 45 things |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|02:36 pm] |
Saw this on minggy's blog and decided to try:
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| Dear Santa... |
[Nov. 28th, 2006|01:58 pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In July I gave icyidiosyncrasy</lj>a kidney (1000 points). Last Friday I bought porn for rekindle_aflame</lj>(10 points). In June I broke anappletree</lj>'s X-Box (-12 points). Last month I gave jializz</lj>a Dutch Oven (-10 points). Last Wednesday I donated bone marrow to midjuly</lj>in a life-saving procedure (300 points).
Overall, I've been nice (1288 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!
Sincerely,
insensately |
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| Moved again |
[Nov. 11th, 2006|03:13 am] |
Sorry for moving around so much... but i've decided to move back to blogger. so please once again change your links! might occasionally still be posting private or friends-locked entries here though, and maybe posting more icons in the future, i've become quite lazy to post them lol.
siphoned.blogspot.com
Bye bye. |
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| Too much |
[Nov. 11th, 2006|12:38 am] |
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I feel like i'm going to break down any moment. i don't know what's gotten into me, i think it's a mix of everything. my mind's been very cluttered these few days, but it's always the same few things surfacing in it. some scare me and others cause me pain. sometimes it gets so overwhelming, the anxiety, fear, longing, anticipation, worry... the list goes on. I need you. but not just you. And i thought i'd become stronger than this. |
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| Dead end |
[Nov. 10th, 2006|01:50 pm] |
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Innocent Steps... If only. i've got the starting, but never the ending. If i could only close my eyes and tell myself it's over before it even started... and all these without it hurting one bit. and if only i never felt what i do now. Sometimes i laugh at myself, for being so stupid. when i stand in a bystander's shoes, i see myself as a big joke. but when i return to my own skin, it's so freaking painful. sometimes it feels like... Why does the world deceive, why do i make believe. When you're aiming for something you can achieve, it feels good to strive towards it, because you can almost see the beautiful ending before you. but what if you're hoping for something you cannot work for, and which you will never get? Only time will tell how much more it's going to hurt. |
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| Cold inside |
[Nov. 8th, 2006|11:40 pm] |
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All day long i could feel a coldness... that i knew had nothing to do with the temperature of the air. as i stood, and as i walked, i could feel it emitting from inside me. i knew very well the root of it. it hurt. emptiness and longing. maybe i ought to slap myself. then again, maybe not. A new purpose. and whether it's right or wrong, it's here to stay. hopefully it will only push me harder. i realise now that i really want it to happen. Jealousy. There are some things which hurt so much you need an outlet. but when you finally do try to voice it out, the words get stuck in your throat. you just can't say it. for many reasons. and i'm not referring to just my current situation. i think i've faced this a few times before. it really stinks. And sometimes, even when you know the pain's going to go away, it doesn't make it hurt any less. because it hasn't gone away yet, and because you don't know when it ever will. why do i not have the ability to obtain what i most want? i think i'm sick of myself. Save me, will you? |
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| Before and after |
[Nov. 7th, 2006|11:05 pm] |
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I'm breaking my own rules, one by one. In making a choice, we often have a pre-conceived notion of what we want, what we are looking for. as well as what we wouldn't consider. we can be so sure about it. but sometimes you don't make choices that way. when you see something else you've never thought of before, suddenly the considerations you had earlier don't hold anymore. I laugh at myself. i never thought it'd be this way. it's pathetic. jing xuan you're pathetic. a big joke. No... it's all in my mind. yes it's just in my mind and if i try harder everything will go back to normal. right? |
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